Tuesday 9 September 2014

labyrinth day 9 - trust.

its cold today,  almost put the fire on cold.   the full moon last night is still rippling through my body.  i believe it was in pisces which is my rising sign.  sensitive, watery, dualistic.  that sums it up quiet well id say.

we've had a few financial hic-ups in the last few days...   finding out about things that had we known earlier, we would have made some big decisions differently.    but alas,  we didnt know these things and now big items are in motion, and back tracking is not an option.  

i know we are not alone in tight financial times.  teachers are for one feeling it, having not been paid anything since the 2nd week of june.  my heart goes out to them.  and i wonder of the collective conscious teaching of this moon around what is money? what power do we give money?  what is security?

my first go to is "work harder".  paramjyoti's go to is "how many more loaves of bread are we gonna need"?   but in fact,  we are maxed in both of these.  so what is left?  surrender,  trust.

as i walked into ma labyrinth today, frustrated, scared, almost in tears, i found myself asking over and over "what do you want!"  as though the bill monster was not satisfied until it had its desert of overdraft.

"money is an illusion" i heard.  "dont give it power.  give the divine power and the divine will always provide"  so that left me with "trust".  remember other times like this... and look at how grace flowed in.  "trust."  the more you can let go of the stress of it, the more you can let go of the story,  the more it will flow and it will work itself out.  "trust".

i can see that if we had known before what we knew today, we would have not made the same decisions.  but clearly the divine wanted us to make those decisions, and now i have to trust, let go and know that we are supported, the divine has and is always supporting Niwas and its destiny.  trust... breath... and keep on walking.

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